Day 10: The forecast is for very warm temps today, but this morning it's in the 30's again! Let's call that 'brisk'.
Today became One of Those Days. Not a sick day, but a day to feel like crap. Nothing bad happened today- quite the contrary, it was an unremarkable day, and could have been quite pleasant. It started well enough, a little tired but fine. Why did it end up like this?
I wasn't going to say anything, because blah blah whine whine. But I reconsidered because I thought of the bloggers I follow, and how I like it when they're honest about the not so bright and shiny parts of their world too. So here's me, feeling like crap.
How did my day come to this?
Maybe because I went out to dinner last night, and ate more heavily than I'm used to. This could be stagnant digestion.
Maybe because I decided to make a pineapple orange spinach smoothie this morning and have a light food day, allowing my body to clean itself up a little. This could be extra toxins.
Maybe it's my Upper Limit Problem. My teacher Maia suggested a while ago I read The Big Leap, a book about why we self-sabotage just when things are going good, and I finally got a hold of a copy. Things are going good right now, especially with my pilates studio which is usually a source of at least moderate anxiety for me. So maybe I have to look at where this feeling of blah is coming from- it could be me.
Maybe I really am just run down. I've been working more than usual the last 3 or 4 weeks, and have had more projects to finish during that time.
Whyever this is how I'm spending my night, it's comforting to know that I don't usually feel like this, and I won't forever, either. I also feel a little guilt and self-disgust for wasting a perfectly good day!
I tell my pilates clients that they have to have bad days to appreciate the good ones. All the same, I'm looking forward to tomorrow.